We are our own worst critics. We know the stuff no one else knows or sees. We know the things we cover up and put filters on for social media. We know our insufficiencies, our failures, our regrets, and our guilt. Sometimes we even live in fear that others will find these things out.
What if I told you someone already knows?
You guessed it. God knows. He knows all of it and more. If you wrote a list of all the reasons you are undeserving of His grace, He could write a list that’s longer. But here’s the catch. He won’t do it.
Romans 2:4 reminds us that “God’s kindness is meant to lead us to repentance.”
Here’s a list of things that did not lead you to repentance…
- A long list of Laws
- A long list of your failures
- A debate you lost a very knowledgeable Christian
- Your grandma’s lectures about tattoos
- An angry Facebook rant
- God’s anger
I could list a lot more, but hopefully you get the point. I imagine that if we drilled down to the reason you chose to follow Jesus, it goes back to the reason Paul gives in Romans 2: God’s kindness.
Recognizing and acknowledging our sin is important, but that’s not the turning point. The turning point is when we realize that even though our sin is endless and ugly, God’s grace is limitless and abounding.
Today I’m just writing to tell you to stop beating yourself up. Chances are, you’re being too hard on yourself. God probably isn’t as hard on you as you are on yourself. Don’t stress over if you “prayed as long as you should have” or read as many chapters of the Bible as some arbitrary rule or person said you should. God — your Heavenly Father — loves you and just wants to hang out. Tell Him what’s going on and rest in His kindness that led you to repentance to begin with!